nasty feminist convictions getting in the way

So I felt like checking out Ardour – since it’s that Big Open-Source DAW and you can get it almost for free if you’re on Windows (and for free if you’re on Linux AFAIK).

The UI is ugly as hell (all Fashionably Dark ™; when is this fad going to end?!), but there’s always hope for reskinning. Either way.

The website is best used with an account; okay; and then I click around and find this:

… Ardour development is driven primarily by the interests of just a few people. Development is a full time job for the lead developer, who also raises a three kids, fixes up his house, has friends and even a relationship with a gorgeous woman.


I don’t know. Maybe I’m the only person in the world who gets majorly disappointed at seeing that. Maybe it’s a perfectly normal human way to describe their relationships, referring to the looks of their partner as THE definitive trait.


But this has killed all my enthusiasm for now. Maybe I’ll wind down and go back. Maybe.



orthodox Christmas tonight

And I’m outlining the things to be dealt with in 2018.

I have my priorities. Sacred duties, if you wish. 2017 saw an extraordinary number of releases by the artists I follow. Hopefully I’ll be able to entice some of you to check them out.

Then, 3D and tangentially related stuff. I owe everyone a post about why I next to left deviantart (this will be of a TL;DR variety, beware). I owe everyone a couple of Dawn/Dusk fix morphs. I owe a few select people an updated build of my 3Delight raytracing kit (with lots of neat stuff and hopefully no new bugs).

Oh, and if anyone here’s playing that Android thing called Hidden City… =D

G3F shapes and smiles

All those late autumn and early winter sales that include giveaways often lead to new characters in my DS runtime. Which I diligently try to put to some use when I have free time.

So, how do I test characters? I try and make them smile. It’s a multi-dial expression, not a stock full-face one. And yet.

// disregard the shading artefacts on the hair, that was a combined pwSurface2 test //


So apparently Arabella 7 the vampire lady has lip implants.

And the other ladies have some lip elasticity issues as well (not showing the most scary results here):

Vickie 7

Well, that’s annoying. Thankfully, Genesis 3 has these “expression bones”. As I have already ranted about, these bones make no sense in terms of anatomy, but at least they’re a thing. So I tried scaling some of them to approximate stuff happening to lips during an actual smile (back to the Arabella shape):


Not exactly a perfect solution, but a step in the right direction.

I actually hope that Genesis 8 has better out-of-the-box functionality in that regard. I don’t yet have any official G8 characters, but I have a couple of custom morphs from the store. When I next have some time, I’ll check the situation.

how to ruin an international year-long party, a practical course

I have finally filtered my emotions somewhat to be able to talk about this more or less coherently.

Basically, this:

Insider info here:

I had heard vaguely that the Gibson CEO is crazy, but I never thought this would come into play anyhow. I never thought this could actually happen. Like, at all.

Certainly not during the anniversary year.

I’m not switching DAWs; I’ll keep on using Sonar even if Cakewalk goes under completely – which I certainly hope against. And yet I’m gutted.

You just don’t do that to people. And I don’t even mean us, the userbase. I mean the employees.

To quote another big name from Boston,

Who’s gonna save us,

Who’s gonna save us now?

of people and problems

I had actually discovered this particular interesting specimen a while ago already. From randomly surfing Vengeance Rising – one band name that makes you want to check their stuff out, right?

Turns out they were a militant Christian thrash/death band of the late 80s / early 90s, and their lyrics were just ridiculously preachy – at their mildest. Here’s an official video for the actual track (doesn’t exactly qualify for a title of a “song” IMO because I honestly don’t understand the appeal of that sort of songwriting and this rather lazy approach to “harsh vocals”). Think of it as of a curiosity.

The funniest thing is that the mastermind of the band later got oh so disillusioned in the church, quit and started waving the “anti-Christian” flag instead, with comparable fervour.

Reminds me of all those “teen crushes” and “phases” that people are supposed to be ashamed of when they “grow up”.

I just can’t take any of this seriously.

Yeah I did grow out of the whole “classic rock”/”traditional metal”/”glam metal” fandom (basically, “pop rock of the times gone by” fandom) – but that actually happened because I had always felt this church-like zealotry flourishing in there so I could never truly connect with fellow fans on a personal level, and, what’s worse, I saw musicians themselves either buy into it and go all diva-like on us, or exploit this veneration in a very cynical way. Let alone the media who, being media, used all that pseudoreligious imagery in their publications so as to unabashedly milk the fanbase by reinforcing their delusions. You know the groove, “this mag has a great article on [insert name here]” – “yay what an awesome mag! we’re buying every issue from now on!”

I still do listen to some of that music (which managed to stand the test of me getting into early music and opera, haha), but I’m happy not to have to interact with the rabid fanbase anymore. Yes “rabid fans” is a collocation in my world. Unfortunately. Those fans who make _me_ look as if I were normal. *shudders*

Tarja Turunen…

…has all those names up on her fb page with a mysterious hashtag “expecttheunexpected”. Including Hansi Kürsch.

Plain awesome, on the one hand. And – unlike with Doro – honestly unexpected.

On the other hand… she has names on the same list that totally scare me. Like, y’know, Michael Monroe.

A number of others are those “well-respected” popular names in contemporary metal. Whom I happen to immensely dislike – Sharon den Adel, Tony Kakko, Timo Kotipelto; and whom I just dislike – Cristina Scabbia and Simone Simons. Purely because I’m not impressed with their singing chops. I can haz a different opinion as compared to a gazillion rabid fans, right?

And then there is freaking Joe Lynn Turner. Who seems to have popped up on this year’s Raskasta Joulua roster as well. I mean, dude! Back off! It’s not your playground! It’s European metal! Go back to your English-speaking “classic rock” format, ibegyaplz. You’re too old for this. Have the Kulick brothers run out of tributes to record?

Yeah, I have almost zero respect for Mr Turner. Not that he’s a bad singer. He’s actually quite a good one. Especially, as they say, for his age (no, honest, the dude can sing for real). But let’s just say that in my time I’d followed his career way too closely for way too long, so if there exists a poster child for questionable artistic integrity, it’s him. And Eric Martin as well, another “well-respected” and widely loved (and technically impressive) vocalist. I can only hope Tarja steers clear of that one, hah.

See, being a proficient singer in and out of itself isn’t enough to win the heart of this 30+ edition of me in this day and age. Again, there are stupendous singers in English-speaking mainstream pop music today (broadly taken pop music, please; I don’t differentiate between rock, dubstep, hip hop or whatever – it’s all pop to me).

The question is: what music do you choose to apply your voice to?

And this choice speaks volumes to me.

not exactly nothing new

In black/folk/viking metal, a “one man band” is a longstanding tradition. A one woman band, though, is somewhat of a novelty to this day, and this is what Vermilia is.

You could say that the song per se does not break any new ground at all, musically speaking, and I would agree. However, the way I view this genre is different. I find this whole black/folk sound relaxing. Honest. Even the obligatory “black metal shrieking”, it’s not an athletic sort of singing. It just sounds soothing to my ears.

So what I want from a project like this is flow and texture. And Vermilia has got that in spades. After all, even though gender doesn’t matter, actual biological sex does, in terms of what a singer’s instrument actually sounds like. I happen to prefer female voices in general, and especially when it comes to that “shrieking”.

Get the digital single on Bandcamp, pay what you want/can afford!

Another plus is that the lyrics are in Finnish and do not concern any specific religion or ideology. Too often, black/folk metal will deal with “Satanism”, militant “paganism” or plain out Nazi crap. I hope no-one needs explaining why I don’t like Nazis, to put it mildly. So, the religious angle is to be found behind the cut. Clicky click for the curious ones!

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